l[Angelic-us]l

shefa::

2006-02-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

hmm...

aper nie...haish...naper sey khai camtu.haish..

ii tiink he lost itt..

he was nt supposed 2 minom...he promised me...iish!knaper nie abg...y muz u repeat...urgh!

ii dunch noe la...shefa nk abg berubah ugrh lau bleh..ii do.

iif i can do it..so can u kan...insyaallah..

KASIH SYG IALAH KUNCI SEGALA-GALANYA

shefa::

2006-02-01T00:39:00.000-08:00

hmm...ii gues..oh gdnez; yepz!

finally da jumpe da one! yiikes...laen darii yg laen..dts 4 sure laa...nt cam da ones i knew..or have known n been wif...die laen..cam tk pnah anoh gini2 sumer...

hope it will hapen laa...die..i dunch noe how 2 describe...bt die one of a kind la..2 4 sure laa..hehekz..*wiinks*

ii noe u noe dey duno laa...jush btween miie myself n ii...hola!

[[ iits a miisery ]]

2006-01-27T19:14:00.000-08:00

y???

ferz daee was crapz n soo far n soo forth! thiinkin tis yer dere wud b a niice yer ahead...bt nooooo shefa noo.
dt wud nott hapen iin a miillion yerz.
my past iis hauntiing me frm crook

:[:sayiing gudbye iiz evrytiing:]:

2005-11-29T01:07:00.000-08:00

my heart aches everytyme dis has 2 hapen...iim perfectly fiine so far.juz wanna update ere afta soo long.haiiz...yasmiin is gone 4eva ii supoz...fad iz gone..fatu iz gone..faizal iz gone..ii wonderr hu else..one by one evryone leaves..for now..fara ish my onlii fwen soo far..fwens dat ii noe cud not last for long..dey backstab miie soo muc iit hurtss..ii fiigure dat wad dey sae wen we were fwens were all true..but its proven now dat 2 dem fwenship is notiing..ii mish alot of ppl ard miie..smtymez iit makes miie cry 2 sleep..fara skrng da ader saket yg bleh akibatkan die meninggal..oh gosh..ii dunno iif dat wud oso happen 2 miie..haiix...my liife iis suppoze 2 b wonderful wip famili n fwens n dos dat ii care 4..

[[kasihku smpi disini cinta kita jgn tangisi keangkuhannya kita berbeda.....]]

dts wat so farr i wanna update abot.xpressing my feelings thru smtng nt by mouth but by werds..dats miee...iif u cnt acept it den iim fine wip dat..tc bubyez

[[hmp?]]

2005-09-04T21:32:00.000-07:00

hmm...iim liike...wow?ish..how cum seh..maner bleh gitu?huh?wad happen now?omg!!!ii duno wad iim supposed 2 do..iim going out soOn n dis personn admiited...ouh gudnez...i juz cant acCept da facT...no la..iits a fake! iit shud b!yup

hmm...sheffa gud gerl....doiin projectt latter....n hehehe...wahaha...hehehe..iim so ashame budden i cut my friinge n iit turns horrendouss...haix..tkpe..

[[haiix]]

2005-09-03T02:13:00.000-07:00

ii relii dunno...iim siick 2 my stomach now...haiix...fwens shud lasts...budden wd abot me?haiix...my abg n akak angkt..akak riin n abg ras...wd hapen 2 dem?dey ask me 4 help budden iin da end hu turns down hu?dem.haiix....ii tot my help wud hav a balas bt dey turn me down...drg tk ckp sowie pon iin fact...tk betimer kaseh pon...haiix...sheffa tk tau aper nk ckp kt drg lgiik..ii dunt understand y drg cam tu pon iin da ferz place..dey suppose 2 b a gud couple tap psl kan dis fark up gerll evrytng jad ginii...smpi adk sndiwi drg tk endah kan...wd am ii suppose 2 sa..bsok akak nye bdae n dis has 2 hapen.haix...tkpela...iim juz gonna lean baq n imagine none of dis actuerlii diid hapen..n ii wud jz wiish her tmr...haish..up 2 dem iif dey oredii solve da problem yet oor ntt...

k tc...

[[juz abot 2 4gt a certaiin sumone]]

2005-09-03T01:41:00.000-07:00

[[each tyme i wud wanna 4get abot sumone...dere sey r popping evry now n den...iirfan?haiix...nvm....ii rellii dunno noe...iim lost iin my own werds...ok2.fad ckp luperkan iirfan..faii pon samer...evry single day laen2 org....hus nxt tmr?ii wonderr...ii duno now..my results r getting better..my liife is getting better...budden dere is oways da twiist iin liife...iim jz nt redii 4 da realiity...ii duno la...my grp of fwens r oways piitchiing on me...nvm2.dere r twiists iin fwenshiips..ii wanna 4get iirfan soon...n ii hope ii nvr noe hym iin da rear future...ii cnt 4gt faii...diie my besh fwend..tkleh siia..budden how cud he?iin da ferz place?...haiix...lyfe iis full of mysteriies..iif fara evr found out bot tiis...ii b iin hot soupp...ii hope tyme passes by n ntg as unxpected wud hapenn...ii liik da way ii am now wif gud famii...gud results..n oters..haixxx...

tc dearriie ppl...

<:<:whheeee:>:>

2005-08-30T07:06:00.000-07:00

...hmm...iits soo loong siince ii wriite..wehehez...hmm..kk..juz statiing dt ii gt da 2 moz wonderfull fwens ever...faiizal n farahzliin...dey are da besh...dey hav always been there 4 me..n me 4 dem..tis is at last nt a frenship dt will break easily...hehe..dts 4 sure..dunwan it 2 break too ii suppose..tmr tchers dae n iim goiin back 2 elias nk meet my fwenziie2 n ckg HafIzaH!...whee..hehe..klah bubyez2.

:::a nEw LyfE ahEad:::

2005-08-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

....hmm...iitz relli niice now a days...my common tests results r fantastiic!...ii gt top iin my klaz 4 geog n my hiistory ii gt A1...wuhuu...n my maths ii pass my Litt i gt A1 also n da restt ii pass as per normal..wahh...sheffa done relli well in her acadamiics...ii luve myselff...hehez...hmm...ii excel iin all n ii wiill contd 4 sure..ii wanna gt triiple sciience nxt year mah,...soo ii muz study really hard..iim luviing iit..luv 2 study..whee...k sheffa stop here la eh..gtg..buaii2..

:insanku syng kini menghilang:

2005-08-08T06:44:00.000-07:00

iim so confused.nvm.ii diidnt gt 2 tok 2 diier 4 da whole day 2dae.iitz been a one mnth bt 2dae..aperr jad oso ii dunno.coled kwn2 diier......kwn2 yg knal diier bt none tau diier kt manerr...ii dunno ah.aper2 jad jad uh.wadeva

<:<:jUz haTe eiiT:>:>

2005-07-29T21:19:00.000-07:00

ii juz hate da fact dt iim even beiing born.y?ii juz hatee my famiily.tkde freedom lngsng.wadda heck?!umii..abii..evryone iis against miie.wd hav ii gt 2 loose.ii dunt even wiill teragak2 lau nk larii umah ah.lebiih baek ah.da fact of juz tiinkiing bot iit makes me rellii piissed.hate all.hate my lyfe.y muz sumer jad kt miie?y muz hystory repeats.y cnt ppl jz lemme b wd ii wanna b.naper kener control miie lgiik.iim nt a kiid miie.soo plz.ii juz hate da fact.hate euu.ii hate all.hate evriione.hate all.hate evriione.jz leave da farkiing miie alonez.juz leave miie alone.hate all.hate evryone.leave miie alone.hate ppl.hate all.

:+:=LurP Fad...:+:=

2005-07-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

hmmz...i dunno laa...i juz gt a std..n hehekz...cool u noe..lurp hymz...whee...bt id unno iif he trusts me ke tk..susah seh nk cayerz..he nvr did trust me..ahaix..tkpela..klah paper i update moore..buaix...

:+:+:Fark!!iiRFan sux!!:+:+

2005-07-09T22:59:00.000-07:00

:+:+:issh...tk cayer yg da fact dt ii gt like tis farking iirfan sak..haiyoo...i hate hymm alotz...he gt nthg 2 do animoree in my lype...now me oni syng fad jek tau....nt hym...dier leh g mampos ah.iishh..he used me sak..kimek...g ah u layan ur crush...wad da fark..haish...he used me...sjer2 jek ckp yg dier syng me...mepekz sak.haiyoo.......he can go n die...dier nie ah...den ari tu leh nmpk dier lak..alamak...kalu leh cam tol2 nk maki dier abis2 sak...kimek yer jantan tk guner...urghh

hate...hym!!:+:+:+

<.hmmz..i LuV hYm.>

2005-06-18T17:02:00.000-07:00

wuhuu....im shoo madly in lup wip hymz...hehekz...he ish shoo cute,switt,baekz...n he luvs me alott...he hymself yg ckp g he ttk knz ttinggalkan me...m shoo forttunatte sehz...hehekz...nantti im going tto mitt hym soon...hehekz..tk sabar...now yg ktter dh suker each otter knz...he dh ttk gado wip me sgttz...hehekz...we lup 2 joke ard...i juz lup hym n juz do...ytd i cried seh wen he sae jgn contact hym nemore coz he sae if i nk ngn fad sgtt pegi ajerz...ahaix...den i reason outt wip hym larhz...hehekz...he ishh shooo switt...n im one lucki gerl...i tthoughtt dtt im ntt able 2 hav any sttd sehz...bt i do jav hym now..i oso ingatt yg dier like otther gurl n ntt me...relli u noe...den now..usualli im da one hu msg hym bt now..hes da one hu msg me...hmmz...he miz me..bsk sattu ari ttk leh conttactt coz i will b celebratting ptt aunttina nyer hse den will b bz...n sum more my ppaid dh goin 2 b low soon...haish...den ttkleh msg hym den he moz probabli go anotther gurl...nope...no way dtt gonna happen coz he promiz me he ttk knz leave me...i luv hym shooo muc...

muax my baby cyg irfan....lup u dear....

hmmz...k la..gtg...buaix...

<.|m nOt fEeL|ng sOw|e 4 u.>>

2005-06-17T18:18:00.000-07:00

evrytymz i msg hym,he wud nvr repli sehz....sumtymz...i mean especialli in da afternoonz....haish..hate hym 2 da max sehz...im lyk i dunt feel sowie 4 hym at all arh...geram sak...haishh....naper he make me tis way..ish he juz using me or sumting liddat...i juz hate da fact dt he sae he syg me n he dusnt mean it..i suppose shoo...naper sia...irfan...haishh...u dh tau yg i tk suker mempermainkanz i...den will u??hah?dh lah kalu u ckp u nanak contact i lagi...im oredi shakng...ish dis how u repay me syg?or r u juz doing or saying tis swit werds bcoz u wan me 2 do stuffs 4 euu...mind u if i evr gt 2 noe dt ure doing dt...i will go ballistic...a guy saying lurve 2 a gerl ishh shoo ez...n ist ishh oso shoo ez 4 dem 2 use da gerl n 2 break da gerl's heartt....y muz a guy do dt?haishh...klahz..nvm...i dunwan anything 2 do wip hym nemorez...bt i dunwan 2 losz hym either....i dunno how 2 make a choice....haishh...nvm...gtg..bubyez...muackz....

FeELinG vEh HePi

2005-06-17T00:39:00.000-07:00

hmmz...wellz...i dunno la...bt im juz dammit hepi 2dae...wuhuu...da guy dt me noe..n juz knew hym as a fwen....tellz me dt he actuerli syg me...ahakz...i was actuerli hoping 4 dt..he ask me 2 bj...den i sae no den tber2 dis mrng at 5 am...he sae dt he wunt force me 2 bj...coz he sayz dt he ish nt dt kindaf guy..n he oso sae dt he wunt force me coz he syg me...i was shocked...den i ask..y?y shoo sudden?he said..he lik my attitude as in he lik da way i am in suc i wud sae sowie no matter hus at fault...me mengalah la kirekanz...haish..bt denz knz...he ask me juz 2 do one simple task n im nt able 2 do it...i feel shoo bad...i dunno wad else 2 do..since den he has nt eplied my msg..i dunno wad else 2 do...im juz grounded n cnt do da favor he has asked me 2 do...y?its juz a simple ting n i neglected doing it...haish....bt im juz hepi da fact dt he told me da truth...we fought lotsa tymz...seriouzli...we did...we broke our fwenship b4...den finalli i told hym dt i didnt wan our fwenship 2 break...i wud b shattered...haish...its juz dt...i duno wad hapen 2 me..i juz lk hym shoo muc..muax!!...hehekz...well...i write more l8er kz?bubyez...

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2005-03-23T00:40:00.000-08:00

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i dunt want anthg 2 hapen 2 him..hes my fwen..n i luv all my fwenz..i hate da fact dat sumting lyk tis wud hav 2 happen 2 ani of my fwenz..y???...yasmin iz away...n he...i dunno wads going 2 happen 2 him later...i hope my fwenz will b ok wif all deir problems..n nthg will happen 2 dem...ahaiz...kz..gtg...no mood 2 write...>>>

2005-03-10T10:00:00.000-08:00

<|fAh BoRed>

2005-03-08T21:26:00.000-08:00

hmmz...wellz...wif my fwen leaving n my abg angkat tk heran sal me agi..ahaiz...he wanna leave me n he majok...tkpe la..den my fwen mintak tolong die ngn wan plak..ahaiz..me relli tk tau pe nk ckp 2 ppl bt den 2 juz sae ok..me tk leh ckp pe2 yg laen..ahaiz...my fwen plak ask me 2 start alik bt den me tanak start alik coz wen start alik nnti susah nk stop abeh nnti wasted ah my 4 mths of quiting...ahaix..me relli dunno..ader urge of nak alik bt denz i dunno lah ehz...ahaiz...wellz...me trying relli hard 2 controlmy nafsu skarng nie..ive oso rejected aderla satu bdk previousli siglap...ahaiz...kecian me tgk him..me wanna tell him dt me nk him n me jad kwn je tap he nk me relli2 badly seh den im like..dunno aper nk uat lngsung bt 2 juz tk uat pe2...bdk e2 sumer laz yr n dis yr batch nk uat yasmin a party bash..hahax..buying 4 her sumting too u noe..mesti la..she relli sedih seh biler dier kener masok damai..i relli pity her..ahaix..me dunno la..i cant do anthg aperz..i juz relli hope dt she wud not 4gt her old fwenz biler dh dpt yg aru nyerz...ahaix...ntahlah ehz..me pon samer jugak..me wunt b influence mooore badli den now..trying 2 change baq arh...oklah dts all...me gtg arh..bubyez...muackz2..bubyez..

2005-03-05T22:02:00.000-08:00

haI..Me again...my bez fwen going 2 change skewl n ive lyk no idea hu i m going 2 count on 2 as a cloz fwen nxt..i will miss her real dearli..shes a fwen u can nvr 4gt...her name iz yAsMiN..veh swit name aytez?hehez..im relli sad wen i gt 2 noe shes going by da end of march or shud i sae after da march holidayz..shes going 2 be away..leaving me alone in da big skewl..im going 2 miz her..haiz..i dunno wad 2 do..hu 2 be wif wen shes gone..i regard her as sumone reli2 cloz 2 me..all my probz i tell her..evrithing i tell her..we gt into trouble 2gether..we made a police statement 2gether wif pizza..ahaiz..im going 2 miz her loads..im lonely as evr wen shes gone..no one cud evr replace a fwen lyk her.her smile...her switness..evryting bot her iz nyc..shes suc a lovable,bubbly gurl..evryone..even those hu juz knew her will miss her..evryone will do anthg as she pleases..i hope dt she wud find sumone like me dere..in her new skewl..hope dt i cud still kip in touch wif her no matter how far we r..umz..klah dts all..tk tau pe nk ckp lgi..air mater dh mengalir..ahaix..k bubyez..take care..~ifah outzZ~

ShArIfAh's thingy in skewl?

2005-01-18T16:45:00.000-08:00

hmmmz...firz impression wif da sec oneZ was real coOl actuerli laa...da sec oneZ were reali fun n amazing....at firz dey wunt gt along 2gether bt afta dey noe me...hehe..dey actuerli were fun...i reli had fun taking da 1e3 tiz year..hehekz...n one of dem even promiz 2 buy a chocolate 4 me..how coOl iz dat..hahakz...wellz...da sec 1e3 students were fun 2 be wif...itz lyk being a sec 1 kid again sia...hahakz...da maly bois were fun 2 be wif toO.i tink im gonNa enjoy da rez of da year...hahakz...bt denz i gt streaming so i tink i shud concentrate on my studies oso...haix..strez year yet fun...hahakz....ermmz...wellz...i tink da rez wud b of commentz frm u ina & syahirah...ive oredi wrote one..now ure turn...hehekz..

*l[Angelic-us]l*

shefa::

shefa::

[[ iits a miisery ]]

:[:sayiing gudbye iiz evrytiing:]:

[[hmp?]]

[[haiix]]

[[juz abot 2 4gt a certaiin sumone]]

<:<:whheeee:>:>

:::a nEw LyfE ahEad:::

:insanku syng kini menghilang:

<:<:jUz haTe eiiT:>:>

:+:=LurP Fad...:+:=

:+:+:Fark!!iiRFan sux!!:+:+

<*.hmmz..i LuV hYm.*>

<*.|m nOt fEeL|ng sOw|e 4 u.*>>

*FeELinG vEh HePi*

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<|fAh BoRed>

ShArIfAh's thingy in skewl?

l[Angelic-us]l

<.hmmz..i LuV hYm.>

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FeELinG vEh HePi